Still trying

I am still going to the gym. I can't believe it. I haven't been perfect but I have been pretty good. Jennifer lost her job last week, it was very hard on all of us. But for the first time in my life I didn't feed her. I called her and had her spend the night with me. I told her if she would come over we would get up and workout together in the morning. WHAT??? I have never offered to workout with my daughter. NEVER!! To exercise through stress and not eat????? It was wonderful! We did our workout routine and then went down to the pool and walked and walked in the lazy river. We talked and laughed and felt great. I still can't believe it. Of course, par for the course I locked my key inside my locker with my purse!!! We both learned how to use bolt cutters that day! And we laughed about it!!

I have been trying to eat less and drink more water. I even took a bottle of water to the movies with me! I have never ever done that. I grab a bottle of water as I go out the door now instead of a can of pop. I am not perfect but I am better, I am trying.

Thanksgiving was yesterday. We stayed home all day. I did not overeat. I had and egg sandwich and a grilled cheese that day. No whining, no feeling sorry for myself. It was just another day and I chose to stay home and be alone. It was nice.

I realize that this will be the only way things will work for me. I am just trying to do better not diet. Yeah for me!!

OK I went to the gym, bitching the whole way. I didn't want to go but I am going anyway! I got out of the car and tripped on the sidewalk curb!! I fell down and landed on my left knee, both hands, and hurt my left shoulder. I couldn't believe I actually fell. I thought I was going to catch myself but I didn't. I sat there for along time, I couldn't get up. No one saw me. I finally inched my way over to the grill of the car and pulled myself up. I hobbled to the car and drove myself home. I hurt too bad to exercise. I came home took a shower and 2 Aleve. This bites!! I will go back. My left wrist is killing me and my hand throbs!! Grrrr it is just wrong to hurt yourself trying to get healthy!

starting again

I missed going to the gym while I was in Decatur. I did not use the treadmill in the hotel. I just couldn't do it. I was tired most of the time and just wanted to relax.

I came back on Friday and worked out on Sat. I was already out of shape. I wasn't able to do the bike afterward. I was glad I went though. I am going back today.

My eating is still not what I want it to be.

Weight 216