Friday 7/31/09

I really have been trying to make better choices because I don't want to diet. I am up very late at night so that leaves lots of time to eat. I am trying to limit my Diet Sunkist to 2 a day for now. I have actually sat here at night with ice water. Good for me. I went bowling on Weds with Steph. It was so much fun to get out there and exercise. We shopped all day and split nachos for lunch at Chillis. Not a perfect day but a good day for me. It felt good just getting out of the house. I want to start volunteering at the hospital. It is just a matter of of commitment. I seem to have a big problem with that for some reason. It is like I think if I make a commitment something better will come along and I will miss it.

I weighed today 208, up one pound. We went to a late dinner last night with Jessica and Justin. I really enjoy being with them. I hope they get married soon. I don't know what the problem is but I want to stay out of it. I really don't know what I am going to do. I think I am waiting for a magic fairy to come along and touch me with her magic wand. I know I don't want to pay anymore for any surgery. It is a waste of money and selfish on my part. Mike keeps his weight off I should too. I will continue to try or at least try to get motivated.

Crossing my fingers for yet another day....