Tuesday

I got up the courage to weigh today...207. I want to lose 10lbs before I go see Dr Romaker. I really have tried to do better today. I am actually drinking a big glass of water tonight instead of Diet Sunkist. I did have a couple of cans earlier today. I know that I don't even have to go on a strict diet to lose weight. I just need to cut back and get grazing all day and night. Now I made that sound easy didn't I. It isn't easy. I have tried today to not eat until late in the day. Once I start I can't stop. It's like opening Pandora's box...everything is game. I still spend most of my day sitting on the couch. I did go out and pull weeds tonight not much but at least I got up. Mike and I went to Outback's and split an order of cheese fries. I had to have the full order instead of the half order. We weren't able to finish it as usual. My mind thinks I can eat more than I can. I am afraid I won't have enough. Crazy thinking. I came home and ate 2 oatmeal cookies and some pb pretzels. I want to done for the night. It is 9:30 I am going to try my best to stop. I hope I can do it. I might have to go to bed early. Tomorrow I am going to hang out with Steph. Yeah something to do!! I really don't like being this fat. But I am in a comfort zone that is well known to me. Crossing my fingers....trying to make it through the night.