Monday

I know without a doubt I am addicted to Diet Sunkist...It is like being an alcoholic. I feel myself taking swigs of it and rolling it in my mouth like it is a fine wine or something. I have been watching TV a lot so I see tons of weight loss commercials. yet none of them appeal to me. I know that any diet you start the minute you stop it all comes back with more! I know that all I need to do is cut back and start moving. Now I am an intelligent person so why don't I just do it? I break so many promises to myself, I don't know why I even try.

I just keep growing. Why can't you get to a certain weight and then just maintain it? Why is it such a struggle? I know other people in my life that don't seem to struggle with food. How do they do it? Is this my cross to bear? If I could stay healthy I would be okay with it but I won't be healthy long at this rate.

I hate feeling this way. I hate getting up in the morning with nothing to do. I hate going to bed at night knowing that tomorrow will be just like yesterday. I hate whining because most people would kill to have my life.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr