Okay the kids are gone, my life is normal again. Yet I find that I am lonely. I think I eat just out of boredom. I need to find a passion or purpose in life. I found out that yet another one of our friends has cancer, stage 4. I can't keep burying my friends...yet here I sit eating myself to death?? I am trying to breakaway from the diet pop by drinking decaf ice tea. Unfortunately, I am still eating cookies with it. I did eat the Milk Duds as I predicted I would...but I threw half of the box away. Yeah!! I put the Milk Duds on my lap top while I was eating them so I wouldn't have to reach too far for them. I forgot about them???how did that happen??? They melting from the heat of the computer....yucko. But I discovered that although messy they are very good warm. The next morning I also discovered one lonely Milk Dud on my brown couch...pop into my mouth it went. I am embrassed that my eating habits are displayed around the house like that.

It was my intent to keep a food diary of sorts, writing down everything that goes into my mouth...I eat too much to keep up with myself. I did go to the movies yesterday with my sister and didn't eat popcorn. Yeh!! I did have my Diet Sunkist to drink though. I had started my day with diareaha again...thinking to myself...yes this will be the day I start my diet....wrong. I lived that day just as all the others before it.

I just don't seem to motivated. I did talk to my daughter this morning and she was on her way to W.W. Hmmm, maybe that is my sign?? I went to the WW website to find a meeting in my area. There is one in Lee's Summit, maybe I will try it. I make no promises...but at least I am open to it. I am interested to see where this blog will lead me one year from now.

Today is Saturday and I have started it our with a cup of coffee...followed by Windmill cookies...it isnt looking good.